I'll travel by plane, alone, to Paris; star gaze and wonder why no one sees how beautiful life can be. I'll wish for summertime all over again, but enjoy December, and buy expensive shit that I dont and will never need and stuff my face with macaroons and champagne while I read Gossip Girl and The Perks of being a Wallflower. I'll stumble upon a bookstore and meet Andrew VanWyngarden who just happened to be in the neighborhood. I'll sit on the platform outside of my hotel and watch the rain while it snows. I'll stare up at the ceiling as my Christmas lights twinkle and shine.
The secret side of me, I never let you see I keep it caged but I can't control it So stay away from me, the beast is ugly I feel the rage and I just can't hold it
It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls It comes awake and I can't control it Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin I must confess that I feel like a monster I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster I, I feel like a monster
My secret side I keep hid under lock and key I keep it caged but I can't control it 'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin I must confess that I feel like a monster I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin I must confess that I feel like a monster I, I feel like a monster I, I feel like a monster
It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin I must confess that I feel like a monster I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin I must confess that I feel like a monster I've gotta lose control, he something radical I must confess that I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster I, I feel like a monster I, I feel like a monster I, I feel like a monster
Cuddling, Writing, Cute kisses, Reading, Iced coffee, Thunderstorms, Harry Potter, The Osbournes, The 80s, Alternative press, Shojo beat, Modcloth, Forever 21, Pajamas, Friends, Laughing, NYLON magazine, Peach tea, Thrift stores, Photography, Shanalogic, Animals, Kittens, Stickers, Fair rides at night, Fair food, Drive in theaters, Vintage, Twilight saga, THE PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER, Movie nights, $$$, Genuine happiness, God, Killian, Kurt Cobain, Drawing, DDR, Surveys, Vera Wang "princess" perfume, Marc Jacob's "Daisy", Red bull, Scrapbooking, Bonfires, Camping, Summertime, Christmastime, Acoustic music, Horror movies, Totino's cheese pizza, Clean//organzied homes, Skylines, Sunsets, Sunrise.
GOALS: >Nose Pierced >New cellphone that I actually like >Hair doneee (platnium bonde//red streaks) >Get more $$$ for Killian's gas expenses so he can come see me<3 >Get tonz of new mangaaa x) >Braces taken off >negative 15-20 >Go to ACEN >Join anime club @ school >Get passing grades sophmore year >Re sub to NYLON magazine >Sub to AP >Sub to Shojo Beat
